These past months have been like a roll-a-coast. It has shown me that while I have control, I am powerless. Powerless to dictating my future irrespective of the route I take. “For all power belongs to God, now and forever. Amen” (1 Peter 5:11).
It is funny how we live each day pretending, yes pretending that we can control people, that we can dictate our future, that our plans must be realized. When, in reality our faith is in the dictates of God. These past few months have humbled me in this regard.
I have learnt more about humility and powerlessness than I have in my entire existence. I have learnt that not all that is beautiful is perfect and that every promise made by man comes with an ultimatum that is not always known. The Bible postulates that “by the sweat of your brow you will eat your food…” (Genesis 3:19) which, in my mind, means that anything that was not earned was not received in the glory of God and will not last.
Therefore, I never take unearned promises likely, they are always suspected and questioned. Don’t get me wrong, I totally concede that God will send you support to complete your journey. However, the support is one that would have been earned.
The manifestation of perceived power lies right there; as we think that these gifts will bring us fortune. However, the Bible professes that “every good thing given and every perfect gift is from above…” (James 1:17). Hence the power placed on the worldly gifts and the persons giving them is false and should be denied. Hence why devastation, tears, the feeling of imprisonment comes from promises not earned and not sent from God.
I will continue on my journey of self understanding accepting that power is Gods and I cling on this, knowing that he will protect and provide for me always. And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus (Philippians 4:19)